dream is always a dream...

hmm i am back to blogging hmm its already going a month since i last saw my baby during this few weeks alot things happen both of us no longer look like a stead i dunno why i am always trying to do things for u but yet i keep making u angry i care for u but maybe i care too much that make u feel like i am overreacting ba and ya so i try to do stupid things like try not to love u so much so i wont make u feel that i never give u freedom so i started becoming more and more cold towards u but i realize this is not working at all and it became worst.... hais i fail man.. but i never give up! i really treasure this relationship and i really love u alot even when i pretend to be cold to u that time i am really suffering i cant well every single night every night i play game watch anime till i cannot take it le then auto sleep de got many times i wanna ask u wat u doing eat le ma or have u sleep well but i stop myself. how stupid i am to do those hurtful things to u..... wth i am thinking man! sometimes i really hate myself for doing things like this i really miss you my dear miss u so much that i dream of u eating with me at a coffee shop its just a little while i jui wake up le but i am still very happy because i can still see u in my dream but its still a dream =( today i ask u this week gonna meet? and u say gonna wait till school reopen... i am sad because i cant get to see u for another week. things is not going well for us and i am really scare that we will break. our old times is gone no more chatting on phone no more long long msg your blog no longer have me too =( this is why i am being over sensitive as time pass by our conversation become lesser and lesser =( i wan to do things that will make u forget about all the unhappy things that is in your mind i wan to make up for every wrong things that i had done so can u pls give me a chance to make up for it? i am scare real scare i dont wanna lose u. i dream of meeting u i wish u are here with me right now but dream is always a dream and wish is just a wish... so i will stop wishing and dreaming instead i will try my best to make my dream and wish come true i will make this relationship a sweet one as long as u dont give up on me =) i love u <3